Betsey Johnson

This dress is Betsey Johnson from the online consignment store, ThredUP. It’s a little big on me, a size 6. my heart feels broken this week. I have to do more spiritual work to feel better and I have to admit that I’m not there yet. So I forge ahead, trying to regain pieces of myself and trying to cleanse myself of needing approval from others. I’ve been listening to some talks by Dr. Shefali. I think she knows what she’s talking about. I’ve also never been that great at forgiveness, especially when it comes to forgiving myself. It was a hard few months for me, during which time I started this blog, started my memoir, began singing lessons, committed to working the 12 steps of sex and love addiction and also learned that I’m an incarnated fairy. That’s a lot to take in. I’ve also had to accept how attached I am to material possessions, even though it ultimately makes me feel bad. My new roommate Carla got rid of most of her stuff (it was probably cursed but that’s another story) and she seems to feel lighter as a result. She even threw away her iPad. I‘m setting an intention to surround myself with positive energy, give to others what I can, and stop blaming myself for what I can’t. It’s an intense journey on a day to day basis and it’s the subject of my memoir. Peace and love.