Belle of the Ball

I found this long vintage dress in Portland, Oregon. I was on a trip with my ex. I remember it being a great trip even though it was an unhealthy relationship. I also remember that was the weekend of the nightclub shooting in Orlando. anyway, I bought this dress and never wore it. It’s too big in the bust for me and the waist was too small until recently. I hope someone buys it and gives it a good home. last Night I met some friends in Astoria for dinner. We got tacos and then I also got a piece of pizza. I don’t usually eat pizza, but this seemed worth it. It sort of was. I also ran into a friend from the soharmoniums women’s choir that I was in until Covid. she introduced me to her fiancé. I remember her being very single the last time I saw her. She met this guy in June 2020 and got engaged in June 2021. he’s an actor. I’m happy for her, but also a bit jealous. Neither of my Covid relationships got that far. I’m learning a lot though. Healing is so uncomfortable at times. There are bad days and really bad days. And some ok days. I got to see my niece and nephew the other day and that was nice. Margot has that new baby smell that I love. Her skin is so soft. Her eyes that baby bluish gray. I hope she and I will be close. I hope she will be a little crazy like me. But not too crazy that her life is harder than it should be. I imagine taking a joint birthday trip to Europe. Maybe she will be 22 and I’ll be 60…and people will think she’s my daughter. And we’ll laugh and drink wine.