Today’s dress is not that exciting. I found it at Housing Works. I like to wear it around the apartment sometimes. But if I belt it, I’m going out (maybe)! As I write this, a bunch of birds are being noisy outside. At times like this I think, do I really live in NYC?
I haven’t driven too much lately. I got a few tickets and had to get that tow last Monday. It messed with my confidence a little. And yesterday I had a nightmare that I was driving but I wasn’t in control. I used to have those nightmares often, but this was the first one since I’ve had my car and it rattled me. I was reading that the change is seasons is hard for some people. These are the colder, winter months where we have to look inward more. I’ve felt it very challenging to get out of bed. I have made plans nearly every day so that i force myself to get out, but it’s not easy. I obsess over little details and drive myself crazy. It’s hard to focus on the things that really matter, like prayer and meditation, and taking care of myself. I want to do better though. I think that’s all I have today. Seeing a friend later. And seeing my sister tomorrow. Florida in 11 days. I said a friend could use my car, but maybe I won’t do that. Too much risk.
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